Little Ole Medium Me

Its taking me many years to figure out what the little golden balls of light where that i saw constantly growing up as a child where. (Angels, Loved Ones) I often saw people that my parents couldn't see and my mum told me i would come out with some bizarre statements that for a small child i couldn't possibly have known. My teenage years where extremely turbulent and its taken me many years to come to terms with some of my childhood and even adult years events. The biggest trauma was to come and occured in 2003 when sadly i gave birth to a baby boy called Ben who died unexpectedly approx 4 hours after birth. He appeared healthy but later i was to learn he had a major heart defect called Hypo Plastic Left Heart Syndrome. There was literally no prior warning to the fact he was so ill. Except for one amazing experience i had approx 4 days before he was born. I had a dream of him and in that dream he came to me, spent time playing with me and said goodbye. I knew deep down the tragedy to come, i believe he prepared me. But nothing really every does prepare you emotionally to cope with such shock and loss. His presence in that dream allowed me to spend precious times i was never gonna get to have with him. No birthdays, No Christmas, No first teeth, No first steps. The list of things i couldnt do with him was endless. All that was left behind when he went to spirit was a big gaping hole in my life and i didn't know what to do with myself. Within hours of his passing, my dad and i sat quietly in the hospital chapel, (i honestly was not a religious person) i went there with the intent to vent my anger at the God that had abandoned me all my life (so i thought at the time) and here he had done it again. I felt no anger once i walked inside those chapel doors. Just peace. As i sat quietly i questioned in my mind why this had occurred? Instead of the normal jabber nonsense i would often get, i heard my grandmother tell me that Ben was safe and he was with her and my grandad in the spirit world. I thought i was going mad. But then i heard his voice, his love filled me as i felt a cool breeze on my face and the lights began to dance in front of my eyes again. Tears trickled slowly down my face as i welled up inside with a hundred and one emotions. I knew Ben was with me and he continued to make his presence very well known for a long time after. He still does at times pop back and let me know how he is doing. In the rest of the conversation with him and my grandparents, i was told something big was coming in my life and i was to prepare myself for the changes to come. Follow the signs and you will understand better in time. What signs i asked? My grandmother replied, "the rainbows Dawn, follow the rainbows, Ben is a rainbow child, you will understand this more in time".
The day of his funeral a big rainbow appeared in the sky as his remains where laid into the ground. I clung to that rainbow and i believed in the love my son was showering on me. Rainbows appeared everywhere.After another sign, 4 weeks later i boarded a plane that took me to wemebly in London. There i found peace in the embrace of Mother Amma, the hugging healer. 8 weeks after that the rainbows lead me to the beautiful hills of Donegal. I set up home there after leaving my home town of Castlebar, Mayo.

I waited for the signs and they still came. When i was 18 i was introduced to Reiki and developed a love of Angels later in my twenties, even developing Angel Workshops for children's. I read a number of books on Angels and the after life but little did i know i would quickly develop this amazing gift. I prepared my self to take a couple of clients under the guidance of my mother and she sent me on a course called Guided Self Healing (worth checking out folks). When i was ready to take a some clients i was nervous, but i believed in my son and his ability to guide me to the right paths. A lady came to me to address her weight issues. On her 4th perhaps 5th session with me a weird feeling came over me, and i felt a presence in the room with us. This time it wasn't Ben. The lady with me was amazing and very accepting of the description of the information and i knew she knew that this information was genuine. I didn't know the woman very well, only through our sessions of therapy we had completed. i certainly didn't know anything about any of her deceased relatives at that stage. The man that made contact from the spirit world that day turned out to be her late uncle who she had a strong bond with but their where some unresolved issues that needed to be addressed for her and he assisted her in her healing process. He validated his presence with information that there is no way i could have known. she was comforted greatly by his presence. She herself felt him with us. This happened again on her next session. Both of us where amazed and i knew this was what Ben had been guiding me towards. My client asked me several sessions later would i consider helping two of her friends. She gave me no information and i went on to make a very strong link with their dad in spirit. One of his last pieces of information left us all stumped. He mentioned a person with heart difficulties. The ladies couldn't make sense of that information so we dismissed it. Later i was to discover that one of the ladies had major heart surgery 6 months later. She knew from her reading her dad was with her throughout and felt his love helping her through. Word spread and i became widely known for the brilliant work i was doing with spirits guidance. I have read for people such as Nadine Coyle and her family members amongst many other beautiful people. Each with their own happy and sad experiences of life. I am honoured to be able to have been assistance. I loved the work, loved the people, loved the peace it gave them. The peace it gave me in helping them hear from their family and friends in the spirit world once more. My life fianlly had meaning. But i had alot of my own resolved issues to deal with still. After three years intensive work and two babies in between that i have taken a much needed break. I regularly worked with live audiences of over a 100 people, which was quiet amazing for a Medium only on the scene a couple of years. However i do believe it was all intended the way it went and sadly i made some bad choices and the pressure became to much. The night my son was born last November 2006 i was working. I probably took on to much and Spirit decided enough is enough girl, take a break. So I'm trying to muddle through writing my book, rearing some fabulous kids. Its tuff as its bringing so much emotion for me but its necessary for me to heal and come back stronger when i am ready. My self esteem took a bashing. but i'm an Indigo Child and strong headed and life wont keep me down for long.

I decided to create this blog to do what i do best, feel the love of the spirit world and pass it on to those left behind. So come and walk awile with me if you feel drawn to do so. If anyone has any stories or needs assistance please do not hesitate to ask me, i cant guarantee you will hear from your loved ones, but i certainly can offer a listening ear. You are not alone no matter how lonely you may feel. Their love and God's love is always with you. Look beyond the anger and the pain for one moment....breathe and and open your heart, even just a tiny bit...trust for a moment, in doing so there messages can reach you.

I will be posting new articles and teachings about Angels, Spiritual Matters and even Spirit Hauntings and Possessions. If your ready for change then i am ready to pass on what i have learnt.

To anyone who has lost a child their is hope......Godbless and take care for now.

Angel Blessings & Sparkles

Dawn